My heart still aches from the preparations that I made a year ago assuming that I have let it go but it’s that week and all coming back attacking my heart – bullets in my back unable for anyone to remove them. I am finally feeling the effect of betrayal this morning.
I received emails calendar notifications of what would have been our events on a daily basis beginning with “checking into our rooms.” This really aches my soul of wasted time that I have put in trying to make this work. This week is going to be a slow week with this on my mind.
God help me to look at things from a different perspective and on a positive note
I question myself if I still believe in the family anymore? I believe I have supported everyone to the best of my knowledge or at least I try to and be there for everyone. I can’t spread my wings any longer. God soften my heart as you know I am all about family.